MDL alert, but art seems to help. :)

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Day whatever-whatever, you know the routine. Still not losing any more weight... I am such a slacker!!! No jogging or exercise today, either, and no Bible reading. So, pretty much O for 3, right? Oh well, Saturday is another day, the sun will rise, and everything will be fresh and clean and rosy-pink, won't it??? Tell me it will, please? And tomorrow... I jog!

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I have taken to doing these little art projects or writing poetry when I feel stressed. I am a member of this site called swap-bot.com, and one of the good things about it is that it has gotten me drawing and painting and creating things again. It's so relaxing. (Until afterwards, when I see the huge mess I have created along with this brilliant piece of art.:)

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It has also gotten me a sweet pen pal. Well, maybe not sweet, I don't know, but we seem to get along pretty well, in the paper and virtual world anyway, despite the fact that to her I am old. I am rather immature so I'm sure it's okay. ;) She and I are mailing a notebook back and forth with our letters and updates and drawings and little gifts for each other. And I included a poem on a pretty (?) collaged page. She made me a CD of the music she was listening to that day... what a great idea! It is a nice distraction for me and I told her there are few sweeter pleasures than a long honest-to-goodness paper letter that you know the writer has actually handled before you. (I think I mentioned this before?) Anyway, the point of that whole thing was this... tonight I was writing my sister a letter and I thought, why don't I start a notebook for her, too? We both enjoy REAL letters, and she has quite a bit of free time right now, I think, while she is in DC without her family. So I did, and I included several poems which I placed on overly decorated pages, and which is why my fingertips are covered in mod podge and I am sitting at the computer at 1:10 AM instead of asleep in my bed, as I should be. I will be tired tomorrow, but crafting or writing or painting all seem to be as soothing to me as warm steamy hot cocoa, or lemony honey-laced hot tea... (and I had tea, too!) and I didn't even know because I hadn't let myself waste time on a project like this in years. And it is worth it, because it is helping me deal with my rolling coaster emotions!

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All of this has nothing to do with LIMFACs, or very little anyway. Although now that I consider that statement, I do have some imagined self-imposed limits in the areas of writing and painting and creating, so maybe I can pretend that I am in some way taking step one towards overcoming those LIMFACs. And sometimes a pretence is the first step to making a real change.

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I am losing friends and not happy about that. Simply through circumstances, I suppose, not losing, but I feel like people I care about are fading out for a bit... I have never felt like I had so many friends that I could afford to drop any by the wayside, yet over time friendships do seem to fade away, or get pushed behind something more relevant to present life, and kind of forgotten, to be peeked at now and again in a moment of heart-felt pathos. Or something. I'm so grateful for some of the reconnections, but I don't like losing others. Not at all.

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Must be time for bed, if I am starting to feel sorry for myself again!!

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And a special note to my beach buddies: Thank you, Friends, for answering my MDL alert. (A kind of code word we text to each other in case of a very bad day... if you receive MDL from me, know that it was texted or spoken in a moment of extreme stress or irritation... but just texting it probably caused me to smile just the tiniest bit, too.) Maybe it is the moon, since it seemed unanimous? And that lets us all off the hook, as far as liability.

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